Where has the time gone?

Well, I can't believe that it has been nearly a year since I posted last, but that is a pretty good indicator of my life right now. Working 2 jobs, taking care of 4 kids +1 fiancee and a husband, a house, 2 dogs, AND planning a wedding makes for a pretty crazy life. I am trying to think positive and count my blessings, but there have been a few times in the last few months where I truly felt like I was hanging by a very fine thread. I am so grateful that Jessica and Josh have decided to get married in the temple. I really do love Josh and think he is good for Jessica. I have seen a side of Jessica that I haven't before...and that is intense determination and the powerful ability to choose the right. I have always known she had it in her, but it has been a remarkable thing to observe. There are times when I add up all the bills and think that this is never going to work, but I have to believe that it will and that everything will be okay. I was extremely grateful to be able to watch and listen to General Conference this past weekend. It truly rejuvenates my spirit and brings peace to my soul. Every time they sing the closing song at the final session of Conference, I feel a sadness that it is over for another 6 months. These little things are the things that have kept me going the past few months when all I have wanted to do is crawl under the covers. As I get older I realize how fast time flies and as I watch my beautiful daughter prepare to go through the temple, I can't believe that it has been 19 years since I held my beautiful 4 pound baby girl. I am so grateful for everyone that has helped her get to this point in her life and I am grateful to have had her in my home for the last 19 years. I know this is just the beginning of seeing my kids leave home. Keaton will be leaving on his mission in less than 2 years and Carson will be just 2 years behind him. Thankfully, I will have my caboose for a few years longer, because I will try and cherish every moment I have left with these special spirits that are in our home.