Reflections

Well, today has been one of those days that you wish you could rewind and start over. I woke up not feeling at all rested because I had stayed up late trying to clean and get ready for company coming today. Unfortunately, even after I went to bed at 1 am I laid in bed thinking of everything that I needed to do today and finally drifted off about 2:30 am. Yuck. Up by 6 to get everyone up and to work...Needless to say, I was tired and perhaps a bit cranky. Add that to the mix of all my emotions surfacing this week and it does not one happy woman make. The whole time I was at work I just wanted to be home and it was just not possible today. I kept thinking of Jessica at graduation practice and reflecting back on how it seems, truly, like I just graduated myself. It sounds cliche, but I do not know where the time went! It passes by in such small moments and we worry so much about the future, that before we know it the future is now and we are there. I am so proud of Jessica. This hasn't been an easy road for her and each heartache she felt brought heartache to me and each triumph, a bit of triumph for myself as well. I never realized that when I delivered this baby girl that a piece of my heart would forever be walking around outside of my body. While the past 18 years have been anything but easy, I wouldn't trade them for the world. Jessica Jill, I love you.